The person named Zurich.

Zurich has been a good guy ever since, trying to be good to everyone. He used to show people how he honestly care for them. He is trying to be sensitive of the needs of others rather than his self. He wasn't born rich but that didn't prevent him to finish college in the quest of reaching his ambition in life. However, people had been judging him unfairly. Despite of his achievement and educational background, something in him people usually turn off or sometimes curse or treat him differently.

Zurich talked and walked like gay but he is not. He is trying to control the swaying of his finger and the gay pitch of his voice. But he couldn't, something that is in there since he was born. The moment people see him, they already judge him as that and don't bother to ask him. So sad that every time he present himself, people laughs or sometimes whispers each other with words unpleasing to him.

Zurich tried to show people how happy he is but not to their knowledge, he is very sad on what he is. He don't want to be gay. He don't want to be one and have no intention to be one. And that forced him to work on it. He started controlling his movements and even his voice. Little by little he observed certain changes, but the people surrounds him didn't bother to avoid the same actions they did.

Zurich tried to court ladies and be in loved with them.Started to show affection with opposite sex. At first, it was really hard, no one seems to understand why he is doing that, for all they know he is a gay. How could a gay do that thing, courting a woman who admired and expect a guy will love her. It is something uncommon, something worth the laugh. But that was Zurich, a man born in a gay's body. Was it his fault, was it his failure? something that need to be understand.

More and more on the next post, I will tell you the experiences of Zurich. How he managed to survive and what are the effects of such actions of him in preventing his self from being gay.

The hidden me in myself

Its been so hard to share something that is hidden especially that the one you are going to share is something that is related to yourself. For long experience in life, there are things that is better written than talked, better shared in silent than in person, and sometimes better kept to your hidden self. However, these things need to be shared in order to ease the pain that the heart is keeping for such a long time and just waiting for the right time to burst it out. Life has been full of secrets were secrets wants to be hidden forever. Sometimes people wants to keep it by themselves maybe due to the circumstances that may happen in the course of expressing all those things, maybe because society is usually judgmental and opted to judge in accordance with what they heard at first glance rather than listening and searching for the truth and considering the both sides of situations. Nevertheless it is unfair. But what can we do, we are in this world full of hypocrisy. Many wanted to share their life's secrets, even their seem to be simple weakness that could fall them down thoroughly. Who in this world would do that.......not even the simplest person would do that.....unfortunately there are but they don't express it in person, they write it or express it in a song or language that needs to be interpreted in a way that may somehow suit to what it really meant.

I made this blog to share to you something that is hidden, something that society needs to accept, something that we need, an eye opener to those who are hypocrites. Many has been that way, and something I, myself had done that many times but how long should we do that way. How long can we withstand that secrecy in ourself...whatever it is, it couldn't be hidden to the other me in ourself.

This blog could be a site that people may share what they want to share about their hidden self. It may be hard but what could we do, this what it is. Personally, I would rather write it than tell it, I don't have that urge to do such thing. Maybe because of various reasons, reasons that only it can answer. As we share thoughts, may be somehow we could discover who that someone hidden in ourself really is. Let's start now, lets share and express freely.